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I had my surgery on January 12th. Being put under is the oddest sensation. One minute I am coherent the next I am speaking in Tongues and then I wake up in a strange room surrounded by nurses and doctors that apparently couldn’t hear me even though I was speaking :-/ But after that “body snatchers” part was over the recovery was what I expected. The pain in my back from then incision only lasted 10 days or so. I have pain in my leg still, but the doctors and PTs tell me it will go away over the next few weeks following the surgery. It definitely was a major improvement over the pre-surgery pain, but I am not sure I can tell that I am making that much improvement. I am off the pain killers for the first time since this ordeal started in September of 2006 now I just take my acetaminophen and deal with the pain that is left. I limp and am tilted to my left side, but I do feel better than I did. Now to get rid of this last bit of pain…

Snow has finally arrived in sufficient quantity to make it look like winter outside. It’s about freakin’ time. Anywhoo, we have added a new member to our family. Coco, a pitbull terrier joined us in January. She is so cute and a little love bug, well not so little. She is the same age as Vala. The get along well spending most of their time together wrestling while Kirby referees. I will post some pictures of her soon.

Haven’t had much interest in writing anything lately. Been busy with my back and all. So I did the physical therapy thing without much success. I tried the cortisone injections and they didn’t work for me. So now I am headed to surgery. Yay! That is not a sarcastic yay, but a “Thank the powers that be” yay. I am so tired of the constant pain and the inability to do the simplest things. After months of semi-effective drugs my doctor has put me on something that truly helps, again yay!

I have continued to lose weight because of my “condition”. I have lost 45 pounds and counting. Although I am psyched that I have lost so much weight I am not happy about how I did. :-/ Oh well, gift horse and all.

So that is it for now. X-mas is here and so am I.

Ah the joys of receiving money in the mail. It is always nice when money shows up unexpectedly at your door. It always seems like someone is watching out for you. Both me and my man have received money in the mail in the past few days. Yum. Time for some shoppin’.

Early September I hurt my back. More specifically I developed a bulging disk in my back. OMFG it kills! I have never been in so much fucking pain. I have been living with this pain for a month now and still no real change. Various doctors have prescribed various drugs in varying strengths with similar results…none. The only thing that has helped is freakin’ oxycodone. I have been on a fucking narcotic for the better part of a month and I still am not getting better. It dulls the pain, but I want more than just pain dulling. I want progress.
I am tired of having to struggle to put on my socks sometimes failing all together. I smile to everyone, but I am tired. I can’t even shower on my own… I have my partner to help, but this is a lot to ask of him. I reached a point where I am afraid to ask for things from him because I know that he is tired of helping and I don’t blame him. But I can’t do it myself…
I have found myself crying because I am unable to perform simple tasks or the pain is overwhelming and I don’t see any hope. I have never felt so helpless before. I am hopeful that the physical therapy I have started will help me get through this, but I am concerned that I will be in this position for at least another month.

It has been a while since I did anything with my site. If any of you know me personally then you know why. Any hoo, I have decided to start writing my thoughts down on “paper” and this is the result. Hopefully I will entertain a few people and if I am lucky I will even piss a few off.  Ahh. A man can dream, a man can dream…