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Recently I have found myself waking up from a mentally chaotic, emotionally difficult and physically stagnant cauchemar. It is like wiping an old mirror clean, under the thick grey layer of years past it is still as beautiful and functional as the day it was crafted. I am that mirror and I am awake. I can think with less distracting thoughts pulling me away with little chance of me returning anytime soon or at all. My favorite quote is by Alphonse Allais, “Ne remets pas à demain, ce que tu peux faire après-demain.” That was my modus operandi for as long as I have had memories.

After nearly a month of treatment I find that I do things because they need to be done. I still struggle with certain things, but that is nothing compared to the improvement to the quality of my life. I am more relaxed and take the time needed to get something done as opposed to flying through it. That is true for most activities. There is only one side effect that I have, dry mouth. It seems that is a common side effect of methylphenidate. I need to find a solution for it.

When my doctor told me to not to take the pill after 5 because it could keep me awake I did not listen very well. Needless to say I learned the hard way that a drug that is also used to treat chronic fatigue syndrome and narcolepsy would be really good at keeping you bright eyed and bushy tailed late into the night.

So things are looking good. I find that my dedication to work has increased meanwhile at home things have also improved. I no longer sacrifice chunks of my soul to keepers of WoW. I enjoy the game but I don’t feel the need to waste away while staring at a virtual environment. I have lost 14lbs since I don’t rush through my meals. That and snacking seems go have completely stopped.

Thank you medical science

So now that I have played with my iPhone 3g all I can say is WTF!?!? Apparently Apple doesn’t want you to use your iPhone to listen to music via Bluetooth. Why the he’ll would they not include all the Bluetooth profiles? The only profile available is the headset profile. You aren’t allowed to sync with your apps of choice, but you can sync with Apple’s choices…sigh. Nothing but Apple can run in the background, in other words you can’t do anything truly useful like instant messaging. You can however choose to receive them as SMS because AT&T can make money that way. It is like Apple wants their customers to jailbrake their iPhones so that they can get what they payed for. Why would a company do that? Do they honestly believe that their shit is so good that people will just live with a device that can do much but can’t because their overlords forbade it? I can live with having to use AT&T even though they have horrible coverage where I live (iCall, save me!), but having my phone crippled because some jackass thinks it provides a future upgrade path that Apple junkies will jump on at the mere mention of an improvement to the current “OS” is something that I have a real issue with. I paid for my iPhone and I want what I paid for. There are plenty of other software imposed limitations that should also be done away with, but I am tired of bitching for now.

My advice to anyone thinking about purchasing an iPhone is be prepared to be on lockdown or be prepared to “liberate” your iPhone from your Apple overlords. I am still on the fence but if Apple turns a deaf ear as it did after the first version then I won’t have to make a choice, Apple will have made it for me. Think different my ass, this reeks of the same bullshit corporations have been dishing out since they had shit to dish out.

Apple is the new Microsoft.